Whats the point of Living?

its midnight i still not sleep yet. how fuck everythings up i feel so empty tonight.
or should i say its TODAY is the FUCKUPDAY. oh i wish my mind was cool.
but it wont gonna happen :[ my life was full of empty hearted.

i know im useless, i know im not good enough, i know im not a goodgirl like the others.
im just a bunch of retarded useless person. kerja saya hanya sial kan orang.
hidup aku hanya sia sia daripada dibenci, dipandanghina, menyusahkan orang lebih baik aku mati.
alangkah indahnya nyawa aku ditarik oleh Tuhan. aku tidak berguna hidup di dunia yang mewah ini.
aku tidak berguna :')

"Life is a pain, Whats the point of Living?"

tapi, bila difikir dalam dalam, aku tak payah fikir benda macam ni. tak guna juga kalo nak mati.
takpa mungkin aku hidup jadi seorang yang amat sial wooohooo. i was born this way~
aku hanya mampu bersabar dengan semua dugaan ini. semua ini hanya ujian daripada Allah swt :(
dan aku harap aku kuat bersabar dengan semua ujian yang amat susah yang menimpa ku ini.

stop i dont wanna think of it anymore lah useless betol. sakitnya bila aku pendamkan semua ini.
akhirnya aku luahkan perasaan aku kat kau :) tq kerana mendengar semua yang aku merepek tu.
and for making me chill akhirnya. ly <3

awesome, my life getting strict and strict now like living in a jail.
wish me luck with this okay people. thnks :)

Love Story

i dont know what to say anymore cause i love you :)
y u so cute? muahahaha i like u in the first place.
i know who i am im just an ordinary kid.
im just gonna let my heart close that not to telling you on the earliest.


on the first day i met you, for me you're just a friend of mine.
hahahaha yeaaa i know its sucks. first hangout with you on that day in 2010.
i still remember those moment. im not really that your friend i mean, friend cmya jak. 
then we jalan here there here there my eyes just cant stop looking at you and i just dont know why.
dinner at mcd, you was infront of me. your friends keep teasing you. hahahaha.
i didnt eat on that time, i just looking at you eating lol. and your hands are shaking infront of me.
so i laugh hahahahaha funny do x) 
then we were standing and wait for the time to go back home.
you said you want to take a picture with me, uhhhh sorry -,- for what? im so embarrasing =''=
hahahahahaha ambik jak la like u said pakai kenangan hahahahaha lol. 
on that picture, you hugging me. i feel like, WOW that was my first sight on you, ♥.♥ and wth r u hugging me? lol. he's hot anyway hahahahahahahhahahaa -_____-'


then we're starting to chatting each other tiap malam hahahaha aher lalu sampai tumbuh jerawat =.='
getting know know and know hahahaha. 
so i decided to make some my birthday party at the Esplened Beach :D
and invited only them ahahahaha dude so fun fun! :D
it was sooo fun playing with the cake all over hahahaha tikam cake sana sini.
that was really awesome moment on my birthday and i really apriciate had a friends like them! :)

look at them, they're soooo adorable ♥

hahahahaha.

and then i was starting to like him -______- and dont know whyyyyy i keep on waitingggg.
waiting waiting waiting like an idiot. hahahaha its okay and im deal with it :D


a few weeks later, school is almost started so he starting to ignoring me and i felt soooosad.
but its okayy and i still waiting like an idiot bahahhaha idiot kan me wooohoooh! :(


so then, 
it was New Year Eve 2010. that night im soo moody and sad, dont remember why im so moody.
me, dad, and my lil brother were just celebrating at Mcd's Permy there in the midnight.
then then then, i saw him hahahahahahahahaha so tekejut why he was there too.
he text me that, "we were celebrating in the same time and in the same place ;)"
awww goshhhhh :))))) started to smile at that time hahahahhahaha.
the fireworks done, then i just tell him about my feelings. so he aok ajak anyway -,-' hmmm sokay :D


i waited for him for a months, like 5 months and i got cool patient on that time ;)
ahahaha funny kan? wait for 5 months? cant you imagine it? LOL. 


5/5/2011 ♥
he was proposing meeeee hahahahahaha gila im so happy :))))
finally he's mine :3 i hope he can be a better person for me.
i love him soooo much hahahahahahahha :D :D 


wowowowowowow cant tell anymore, look im so happy hahahahahaha :)
i wish he could be mine forever. does forever exists? :)

♥:)

THE END

No mood, Feel fuck down.

another day. im so bored and not in a mood rite now.

something is not right. something weird. i know its ridiculous but i can see it the way its looks like.

im so in madness and sadness :(

ishhhh maybe im gonna give up this time.

i just have to shut the fuck up and be patient. 

hm i dont know wht to say anymore just merepek sana sini macam org bodoh ok bye

Got friend, Not alone.

i walk a lonely road

alone? am i? no. i still got Allah in my life :')

still got family, friends.

yeah im not alone bebeh

but sometimes i being alone when there is no one here beside me.

but now, my friends all around me ♥

and also apreciatting them much.

especially my old bestfriend, era. now, we're like no longer closer but we still friends kan? 

yeah i miss you so much. i remember time when we spent so much time together hahaha

especially when the time we're at grand old lady up there in the middle of the night.

we were so young tht time.

now we all grown up. being matured, not a kid anymore.

and also my bestiemate, neeza. yeah aku tauk kau slu mrh aku. tapi iboh iso k. ko tetap kawan aku :')

and aku rindu kau lalew lalew nok crazy crazy ya hahaha i wish i could spent time with you gk ;)

mereka lah sahabat ku yang memahami aku selama ini :')

thank you :D

Have a Nice Day.

Hello pretty night. Today? Baru saja today.
I mean yesterday, 9/4/11. Outing with my friends :D

Oh im feel like so freaking lesbian posting status some nonsence lesbian thingy haha
but im real lesbian! but not la. hehe kidding. if im a lesbian, i never love a boy.
stupid bitch. HAHAHAHA!!!

emmm today i go to acha's cousin party. i go la today. haha so sik boring dudok2 rumah ajak
emm apa gk. ish kentut ajak sikda idea.
im no good in essay2 hahaha. bm pun gagal -______-' see im no good hihihhuhuhuhuh :(

2 more weeks exam. haihh :(( this is hell.
i didnt study, i didnt do my homework, im just getting lazy day by day argh!
hows this? :( mom will mad at me if i lazy.
mun dah balit sekolah tido ajak. bangun, then tido lagi. how can i say? skolah balit aher li jak :(((

hmm malas la nak stress awal awal. mok enjoy lok kejap okay? :)
mun sik bila aku nak spent time masa remaja aku tok
REMAJA HANYA SEKALI :)

okay done, assalamualaikum..