Monday, May 30, 2011

Forever Boring

Its monday.
im sick since yesterday, flu, fever, sakit tekak hahaha.
just sitting at home all day ne ndak. please bring me somewhere lahhh :[
i know la im not a rich people like people out there go vacation :(

yesterday at 5.17pm. getting high with uncook curry maggi. fuck high hehehehe.
then get some cold water. dahlah sakit masa ya. makin sakit dipolah.
what shud i care. im extremely bored and nothing to do.
a few minutes, ohhhh damn high gila. sik abis mee ya. hohohoho. sik tahan.
tears drop ajak ajak. sooo hottt. drink a bottle of mineral 1.5 litter.
A BOTTLED OF 1.5 LITTER. non stop go toilet and pee-ing.

then get some rest. i feel hot hot hot then got fever. not bieber fever ok please bitch.
i normal fever. get some medicine? malas. i really malas eat some medicine.
no use. klk2 bait juak :) hehehehehehe. better lagik if i sakit :') ehhh salah. haha.
cross the line oredyy. -______-

oh yea, yesterday is papa birthday :') oh dad. sorry xda wish marek. very malas marek. =(
dad, i love you. kiki always love papa :)))) even papa ganas suka marah sana sini.
but u never cross the line on your mad. but mom did -____- i love daddy more :')
but now, sik tiap2 hari tgk papa. we seperated kan pa. i wish i could live you.
i want like old things. live with papa is awesome. but now, not every minute jak jumpa papa :(
hope you always be healthy and happy pa :) im your only princess always love his dad :))

ahhh you! bila gk mok balit you my boy? i miss you so much. sampe sakit tau i kat sitok.
hahahahahaha kidding :P you have so much fun there and i always pray that you okay there. :')
i miss you sooo damn muchhhhhhh =( its okay. i'll wait until you come back, dear

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Whats the point of Living?

its midnight i still not sleep yet. how fuck everythings up i feel so empty tonight.
or should i say its TODAY is the FUCKUPDAY. oh i wish my mind was cool.
but it wont gonna happen :[ my life was full of empty hearted.

i know im useless, i know im not good enough, i know im not a goodgirl like the others.
im just a bunch of retarded useless person. kerja saya hanya sial kan orang.
hidup aku hanya sia sia daripada dibenci, dipandanghina, menyusahkan orang lebih baik aku mati.
alangkah indahnya nyawa aku ditarik oleh Tuhan. aku tidak berguna hidup di dunia yang mewah ini.
aku tidak berguna :')
"Life is a pain, Whats the point of Living?"

tapi, bila difikir dalam dalam, aku tak payah fikir benda macam ni. tak guna juga kalo nak mati.
takpa mungkin aku hidup jadi seorang yang amat sial wooohooo. i was born this way~
aku hanya mampu bersabar dengan semua dugaan ini. semua ini hanya ujian daripada Allah swt :(
dan aku harap aku kuat bersabar dengan semua ujian yang amat susah yang menimpa ku ini.

stop i dont wanna think of it anymore lah useless betol. sakitnya bila aku pendamkan semua ini.
akhirnya aku luahkan perasaan aku kat kau :) tq kerana mendengar semua yang aku merepek tu.
and for making me chill akhirnya. ly <3

awesome, my life getting strict and strict now like living in a jail.
wish me luck with this okay people. thnks :)

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Love Story

i dont know what to say anymore cause i love you :)
y u so cute? muahahaha i like u in the first place.
i know who i am im just an ordinary kid.
im just gonna let my heart close that not to telling you on the earliest.

on the first day i met you, for me you're just a friend of mine.
hahahaha yeaaa i know its sucks. first hangout with you on that day in 2010.
i still remember those moment. im not really that your friend i mean, friend cmya jak. 
then we jalan here there here there my eyes just cant stop looking at you and i just dont know why.
dinner at mcd, you was infront of me. your friends keep teasing you. hahahaha.
i didnt eat on that time, i just looking at you eating lol. and your hands are shaking infront of me.
so i laugh hahahahaha funny do x) 
then we were standing and wait for the time to go back home.
you said you want to take a picture with me, uhhhh sorry -,- for what? im so embarrasing =''=
hahahahahaha ambik jak la like u said pakai kenangan hahahahaha lol. 
on that picture, you hugging me. i feel like, WOW that was my first sight on you, ♥.♥ and wth r u hugging me? lol. he's hot anyway hahahahahahahhahahaa -_____-'

then we're starting to chatting each other tiap malam hahahaha aher lalu sampai tumbuh jerawat =.='
getting know know and know hahahaha. 
so i decided to make some my birthday party at the Esplened Beach :D
and invited only them ahahahaha dude so fun fun! :D
it was sooo fun playing with the cake all over hahahaha tikam cake sana sini.
that was really awesome moment on my birthday and i really apriciate had a friends like them! :)

look at them, they're soooo adorable 
and then i was starting to like him -______- and dont know whyyyyy i keep on waitingggg.
waiting waiting waiting like an idiot. hahahaha its okay and im deal with it :D

a few weeks later, school is almost started so he starting to ignoring me and i felt soooosad.
but its okayy and i still waiting like an idiot bahahhaha idiot kan me wooohoooh! :(

so then, 
it was New Year Eve 2010. that night im soo moody and sad, dont remember why im so moody.
me, dad, and my lil brother were just celebrating at Mcd's Permy there in the midnight.
then then then, i saw him hahahahahahahahaha so tekejut why he was there too.
he text me that, "we were celebrating in the same time and in the same place ;)"
awww goshhhhh :))))) started to smile at that time hahahahhahaha.
the fireworks done, then i just tell him about my feelings. so he aok ajak anyway -,-' hmmm sokay :D

i waited for him for a months, like 5 months and i got cool patient on that time ;)
ahahaha funny kan? wait for 5 months? cant you imagine it? LOL. 

he was proposing meeeee hahahahahaha gila im so happy :))))
finally he's mine :3 i hope he can be a better person for me.
i love him soooo much hahahahahahahha :D :D 

wowowowowowow cant tell anymore, look im so happy hahahahahaha :)
i wish he could be mine forever. does forever exists? :)